Tuesday, July 7, 2009

It's still hard for me to chit chat. I don't know that chit chatting will ever be at to top of my list of ways to spend my time again but I have decided to start blogging again anyways.
I returned to work part time last week. I would probably have preferred to not return to work ever but I would rather work 3 days week now then have to stress about me rent will get paid in the future. So here I am. When the filing is done and the phone calls aren't coming in I think it would be better for me to do some bloggy chit chat than to sit in my sad gray cubicle with my own thoughts. I am still in my sad gray cubicle but at least my mind is working.
I don't have much prepared for today just the announcement of my return and I will throw in a couple of pictures of what makes me smile
My baby bay Miles

and my sweet baby kitty Eleanor Rigby


Kathy said...

Glad you're back.

Wish I had something clever and insightful to say :)

jmassingham said...

I wish there were words to make you feel better. And I cannot even beging to imagine what you are going through. When I lost my child and held him/her in my hands I felt like a huge part of my life would forever be missing. Although, in my eyes are loses are very different, your's being more difficult, we both know that empty feeling that no one and nothing can fill. The only advise that I have is to try to see all the good in the world that surrounds us. I know it sounds so cliche, but when you start to look for the good in the world, the bad seems to get a little easier to deal with. Miles' laugh early in the morning, the way your husband's eyes light up when you walk in the room, the smell of your favorite meal being prepared. All these things seem to make the world a better place to live in. And just remember, that your family and friends are always there for you when you are ready. And if you ever need to talk and just need a person to listen and not say a thing, you can always call on me. Some of the best days I had after my baby died where just talking to good friends about nothing. If you ever need anything at all, I promise to be a phone call or email away.